Category Archives: literature

>Right now: Reading!

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These are the books that shape me at the moment.
One quote per volume.

Per Faxneld, Mörkrets apostlar – Satanism i äldre tid
Przybyszewski inleder med att postulera två eviga gudar i ständig kamp med varandra, en “god” och en “ond”. Den gode uppmanar människan till att vara som viljelösa barn som lyder blint, medan den onde – Satan – står för nyfikenhet och arrogant trots. Han är även vetenskapens och filosofins fader, och i andra av sina uppenbarelseformer dessutom den köttsliga lustans gud. Den “goda” guden däremot hatar jordisk skönhet. Det står snart klart att termerna ont och gott ska uppfattas bara som traditionella beteckningar, då Satan för polacken är den goda av de två.
Przybyszewski ser evolution som existensens enda lag, och Satan som ett förkroppsligande av denna princip. I enlighet därmed kan Satan utöver att vara en progressiv förnuftets beskyddare även exempelvis agera inspiratör för en brottsling som förstör många liv så att något nytt kan uppstå. Detta, som kan tolkas som ondska, är helt i samklang med livets egen evolutionära natur: “Ty Satan är det evigt onda, och det evigt onda är livet.”
“Ondskan” – termernas betydelse är hos Przybyszewski som sagt inverterade – är alltså livet självt, den ständiga framåtskridande tillvaron, medan det “goda” är det som hindrar evolutionen: “Satan älskar det onda, eftersom han älskar livet, han hatar det goda, eftersom han hatar stagnationen, trögheten.”

Fernando Pessoa, Den anarkistiske bankiren
– Det verkligt onda, det enda onda är de sociala konventionerna och fiktionerna som tränger undan de naturliga realiteterna. Detta gäller allt, alltifrån familjen till pengarna, alltifrån religionen till staten. Vi människor föds som män eller kvinnor, det vill säga vi föds för att senare, som vuxna, bli män eller kvinnor; men det ligger inte i naturens ordning att vi ska bli äkta makar eller rika eller fattiga och inte heller katoliker eller protestanter, portugiser eller engelsmän. Allt sådant blir vi på grund av de sociala fiktionerna. Varför är nu dessa sociala fiktioner av ondo? Därför att de är fiktioner, därför att de inte är naturliga.

Fernando Pessoa, En stoikers fostran
Det finns ingen större tragedi än när en människa befinner sig på samma nivå såväl i intellektuellt som i moraliskt avseende. För att en människa skall kunna vara helt och fullt moralisk måste hon vara lite enfaldig. För att en människa skall kunna vara helt och fullt intellektuell måste hon vara lite omoralisk.

Fernando Pessoa, Dikter av Alberto Caeiro
Som ett barn innan det har fått lära sig att bli vuxet
har jag varit sann och lojal mot det som jag såg och hörde.

Fernando Pessoa, The Book of Disquiet
Every day things happen in the world that can’t be explained by any law of things we know. Every day they’re mentioned and forgotten, and the same mystery that brought them takes them away, transforming their secret into oblivion. Such is the law by which things that can’t be explained must be forgotten. The visible world goes on as usual in the broad daylight. Otherness watches us from the shadows.

Fernando Pessoa, Orons bok
Så trist att aldrig ha varit en haremsdam! Jag tycker så synd om mig själv som inte har fått uppleva det!

Italo Calvino, Den tudelade visconten
Efter drabbningarna erbjöd fältlasarettet en anblick ännu mer fruktansvärd än själva slagfältet. På golvet stod den långa raden av bårar med de stackars människorna och runt omkring härjade fältskärerna och slogs om pincetter, sågar, nål och tråd och amputerade kroppsdelar. Från lik till lik gjorde de allt för att väcka de döda till liv, sydde ihop eller sågade, täppte till hål och läckor, vände ut och in på blodådrorna som handskar och lade dem lappade och tätade på plats igen, men med mera trådar än blod i. När en patient dog använde man allt som dög av hans kropp till att laga en annans lemmar med, och så vidare. Värst var det med inälvorna: om de en gång hade kommit i oordning visste man inte hur de skulle läggas till rätta igen.
När lakanet som täckte visconten drogs undan blottades en fruktansvärt stympad kropp. Han saknade en arm och ett ben, och inte nog med det: allt som hade funnits av bröst och buk mellan detta ben och denna arm var bortslitet, söndersprängt av kanonkulan som hade träffat prick. Av huvudet återstod ett öga, ett öra, en kind, halva munnen, halva näsan, halva hakan och halva pannan: av huvudets andra hälft fanns bara ett mos. Kort sagt, av visconten hade ena hälften räddats, den högra, som för övrigt var helt oskadd, utan en enda skråma förutom den långa sårytan efter vänsterhalvan som hade blivit söndersprängd.
Läkarna var förtjusta:
– Uj, vilket lysande fall!

F.X. Toole, Konsert för blåsare
Jag hejdar blodflödet.
Jag hejdar det åt boxare mellan ronderna för att de ska kunna hålla sig kvar i matchen.
Blod knäcker somliga killar. Så var det med Sonny Liston, må Gud skänka frid åt hans själ. Hård och hänsynslös i ringen kunde han vara, men att se sitt eget blod kunde få honom att rasa ihop.
Jag är inte den som avgör när en match ska brytas, och jag syr inte ihop jack när matchen väl är över. Inte heller är det mitt jobb att skicka en kille till sjukhus på grund av hjärnskada. Mitt jobb är att hejda blodflödet så att boxare kan se tillräckligt bra för att fortsätta boxas. Gör jag det kanske jag räddar en killes mästartitel. Jag sköter den enda lilla grejen, och jag är värd varenda cent man betalar mej. Om jag hejdar blodflödet så att jag räddar matchen åt killen, älskar han mej mer än han älskar sin far.

>Fernando Pessoa: Happiness does belong to him

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What’s given, in fact, always depends on the person or thing it’s given to. A minor incident in the street brings the cook to the door and entertains him more than I would be entertained by contemplating the most original idea, by reading the greatest book, or by having the most gratifying of useless dreams. If life is basically monotony, he has escaped it more than I. And he escapes it more easily than I. The truth isn’t with him or with me, because it isn’t with anyone, but happiness does belong to him.
Fernando Pessoa, The Book of Disquiet, published for the first time 50 years after his death. Pessoa died in 1935.

>Fernando Pessoa: Apocalyptic feeling

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Since every step I took in life brought me into horrifying contact with the New, and since every new person I met was a new living fragment of the unknown that I placed on my desk for my frightful daily meditation, I decided to abstain from everything, to go forward in nothing, to reduce action to a minimum, to make it hard for people and events to find me, to perfect the art of abstinence, and to take abdication to unprecedented heights. That’s how badly life terrifies and tortures me.
To make a decision, to finalize something, to emerge from the realm of doubt and obscurity – these are things that seem to me like catastrophes or universal cataclysms.
Life, as I know it, is cataclysms and apocalypses. With each passing day I feel that much more incompetent even to trace gestures or to conceive myself in clearly real situations.
With each passing day the presence of others – which my soul always receives like a rude surprise – becomes more painful and distressing. To talk with people makes my skin crawl. If they show an interest in me, I run. If they look at me, I shudder.
I’m forever on the defensive. I suffer from life and from other people. I can’t look at reality face to face. Even the sun discourages and depresses me. Only at night and all alone, withdrawn, forgotten and lost, with no connection to anything real or useful – only then do I find myself and feel comforted.
Fernando Pessoa, The Book of Disquiet, published for the first time 50 years after his death. Pessoa died in 1935.

>F.X. Toole – Pound For Pound

>I was recommended this book by work colleague Ronnie Haag the other day and I was totally blown away. My fellow worker is into boxing, Bukowski, writing and real life – amongst many other things, of course (check out his books, one about Charles Bukowski and one about Muhammad Ali) – and since real life is a bitch, and this book is all about that, it’s a book that touched my soul. It made me cry, just like when I read The Road by Cormac McCarthy (I wrote some words about that masterpiece in 2006, read the article here).
At first, it may seem like it’s a book about boxing. Nothing wrong with that, since F.X. Toole (pen name for Jerry Boyd), a boxing trainer himself, is a magician when it comes to describing the art. However, to me this ain’t that much about boxing. When you get past the first fifty pages or so, you’ll see that this is about life and its setbacks and tragedies, the grieving of lost friends and family, sorrow and tears, shattered dreams. It’s about friendship and trust. Loneliness and sadness. But as darkness descends there’s still light at the end of the tunnel. Or is there?
It’s a truly heartwrenching story that really made me think deeply about life. You know, the usual crap one thinks about everyday, but sometimes some things make you think harder. Pound For Pound is such a thing. Mind you, it’s not a Rocky story. Life has very few happy endings…

Toole’s way of handling characters is magnificent. The characters are real. The story is real. You can feel the pain and the intensity. You can taste the blood and defeat. Like it says on the back cover: ”Pound For Pound is the story of men down but not out: old men whose lives have been tough and young men searching for glory”.
But don’t get caught up by this ”men” thing, though. It’s about people, not about gender.
In fact, I first noticed F.X. Toole when Clint Eastwood adapted Toole’s collection of short stories Rope Burns: Stories from the Corner into the worthy film Million Dollar Baby in 2004. The movie tells the story of Maggie Fitzgerald, a 31 year old white trash waitress who decides to make a difference through boxing. I think the movie kind of captures the sadness and melancholy, how life is about finding your passion and giving it your all, even though you still won’t make it (whatever that means). It’s about being able to look back and say ”I did alright” instead of ”I did nothing”. When reading Pound For Pound this feeling is so much stronger.
As real as it gets, to quote an old UFC slogan.

F.X. Toole
Born 1930
Published Rope Burns, his first book, in 2000 at the age of 70
He died in 2002
Pound For Pound was released in 2006

>Some thoughts about Watchmen the movie

>Who watches the watchmen? Well, I did yesterday, alongside two men in their early 30’s who hadn’t read the book and didn’t know shit and thus kept asking themselves what the hell was going on. I don’t think they enjoyed the movie, and I don’t think they will read the book.

99 times out of 100 the book is better than the movie. The book gives you the insight and depth, whereas the movie brings the visuals, the surface. The Watchmen comic book is the creation of Alan Moore (author) and Dave Gibbons (artist). The Watchmen movie is directed by Zack Snyder. Claudio Marino comments on my earlier Watchmen post: ”A friend of mine said that Snyder has made an adaptation of Gibbon’s part, not Moore’s”. I totally agree with that. Still, I enjoyed watching Watchmen. A lot.
Having read the book at least three times in a short period of time just before seeing the movie was a good thing to do. I knew every part. And my jaw dropped to the floor when faced with what Snyder has created. It was awesome seeing the comic book come to life in a frame-by-frame way. So many details! I guess I missed 90% of all the stuff going on in the background, but when it’s released on Blu-ray I’ll catch up.


However, everything CGI is pretty much crap, especially when they’re on Mars. And the sex scenes and some of the fight scenes are very dull and could’ve been made a whole lot better (Speaking of sex, I noticed that Dr. Manhattans cock is way larger in the movie. You digest that for a second… *insert smiley here* )
As for the fight scenes I had expected more ”normal” stuff, not The Matrix fighting. I mean, only Dr. Manhattan is supposed to have real superpowers, right? The whole thing with the superhero story is that it’s ordinary people doing what superheroes do, but in a realistic way. Saying that, I think the movie focuses on the superhero thing too much. In my opinion the book is not at all about superheroes…

The casting is good, but again – only on the visual side. The actors look like they do in the comic book, but that’s pretty much it. I cannot feel the characters as much as I do in the book, with one exception: Rorschach! Hail Jackie Earle Haley! He’s definitely spot on. The rest of the actors are pretty much meaningless, soulless (so I guess Billy Crudup playing Dr. Manhattan does a good job after all…).

The music is quite different than expected (I chose not to read reviews before watching this one, so I didn’t know anything about the music); Jimi Hendrix, Leonard Cohen, Simon and Garfunkel, Bob Dylan… Sure, there are references to Dylan’s lyrics and such in the book, but I’m not sure if the actual music fits. I like the songs, but nah… It felt strange. I laughed at the Apocalypse Now reference in Vietnam, though.


So, the visual take on Snyder’s Watchmen deserve applause. But Alan Moore, who has always hated his stories turned into movies (check the end of this article), will definitely hate what Snyder has done. There’s no depth to be found. Whereas the comic book takes on so many different aspects of story telling (the news vendor, the kid reading the comic book about pirates, the gay cab driver and her activist girlfriend, The New Frontiersman, the imaginary books and articles, the in-depth dialogue about politics and philosophy…), the movie mostly focuses on the visuals and the superheroes. In the comic book characters working in the background take on leading roles (for example, the pirate story becomes part of the narrative), and the level of details and depth is simply amazing. That’s what makes the book so fascinating. The importance of all these techniques and characters is pretty much left out in the movie.
Also, changing the ending was not a good move.

All in all, I still rate Watchmen 4 out of 5. It’s the best adaptation of a comic book so far and it is very well put together. 2 hours and 45 minutes went in a rush. I’m really looking forward to the Blu-ray release which hopefully will bring extended scenes, audio commentaries, documentaries, behind the scenes…
I’ll be checking out Watchmen: The Complete Motion Comic and Watchmen: Tales of The Black Freighter as well. Read about those releases here.

Below, a Watchmen viral.

>Watchmen – The end is nigh

>I wrote an article about Watchmen in September last year (read it here!), and now the movie has finally arrived. It’ll be damn exciting to watch the Watchmen, I tell you! I hope they’ve kept the darkness and seriousness which is always present in the brilliant comic novel, or else I’ll be disappointed. I mean, it’s tough enough to make a comic book about superheroes seem mature, but that’s where the comic succeeds 110%. It’s extremely good and I deeply urge each and everyone of you reading this blog to give the book a try. It’s one of the best books I’ve ever read.
From what I’ve seen so far the movie looks really good. Director Zack Snyder made a great visual impact with 300 (I wrote a bit about that here), so I have no doubts there… The big question is how it feels.

Dog carcass in alley this morning, tire tread on burst stomach.
This city is afraid of me. I have seen its true face.
The streets are extended gutters and the gutters are full of blood and when the drains finally scab over, all the vermin will drown. The accumulated filth of all their sex and murder will foam up about their waists and all the whores and politicians will look up and shout “Save us!”… and I’ll look down and whisper “No.”
They had a choice, all of them.
They could have followed in the footsteps of good men like my father or President Truman. Decent men who believed in a day’s work for a day’s pay. Instead they followed the droppings of lechers and communists and didn’t realize that the trail led over a precipice until it was too late.
Don’t tell me they didn’t have a choice.
Now the whole world stands on the brink, staring down into bloody Hell, all those liberals and intellectuals and smooth-talkers…
and all of a sudden nobody can think of anything to say.
Rorschach
‘s journal, October 12th, 1985

>The Selfish Gene

>I know absolutely nothing when it comes to evolutionary biology and zoology or whatever it’s called. I know I love sex, but that’s about it. I believe sex is a part of evolution… ;)
Nevertheless, having read Richard Dawkins‘ amazing book The God Delusion (I wrote a bit about it here. Also check steve austin’s runthrough (in Swedish) here.), I decided to try his old masterpiece The Selfish Gene. I’ve come across the title several times when reading about religion, and especially when reading what the Young Earth creationists have to say. These comedians seriously believe that the universe is less than 10,000 years old. It is estimated that 47% of Americans hold this view, and almost 10% of Christian colleges teach it. No wonder the world is a fucked up place!

However, when reading The Selfish Gene I’m so fascinated by this whole thing called existence, I’m almost willing to submit to the idea of Intelligent Design and whatever the hell these crazies (EDIT: the creationists) are talking about. It’s really that amazing. There’s a lot more to evolution than many people realise. And I mean a lot more!
Dawkins, just as in The God Delusion, argues like the professional he is, but it’s never a dull read and even people who aren’t the slightest interested in the theory of evolution should enjoy this book if they only gave it a fair chance. It’s not hard going and Dawkins provides a lot of interesting examples that’ll make your brain flip because they’re pretty mindbending and thought-provoking.
I don’t know, maybe die hard biologists think Dawkins’ simplifying and dramatising ideas, often using sweeping statements, are laughable. I like it, though.
But what struck me, me being a Spenglerian (or at least having read a lot of Spengler stuff and liked it), is that Dawkins’ argumentation leaves little room for the influence of culture and individuality when it comes to human development. Even so, he apparently coins the term ”meme” in this book, meaning ”a unit of human cultural evolution analogous to the gene, suggesting that such “selfish” replication may also model human culture, in a different sense” – or ”a unit or element of cultural ideas, symbols or practices; such units or elements transmit from one mind to another through speech, gestures, rituals, or other imitable phenomena”.
I have the feeling I will return to this book when reading Spengler further on…

Anyway, this is probably the best popular science book I’ve ever read. If you decide to read it, make sure you get the 30th anniversary edition (yes, it was originally published in 1976!), since it includes a very large selection of notes which offer an additional perspective to many topics.
As for the title, The Selfish Gene: it’s kind of a metaphor describing the behaviour of genes, where altruism is an integral part of the so called ”selfishness”.

I read Charles Darwin‘s On the Origin of Species some 15 years ago, and I think that kind of got me started on the anti-Christian (left hand) path, and I’m re-reading it right now.
Still, I feel I know nothing. Like Manuel.